Stuck in a rut...

I haven't written for a while. I haven't really had a creative idea for a while. I'm stuck in a rut, and I haven't wanted to admit it.

Starting a blog was something I was so excited to start, and don't get me wrong I'm so glad I did. It's given me a creative outlet, and kept me busy through patches of unemployment and whilst Ollie was away. Within this first year of writing a blog I have been asked to write for a website that I love, and just the thought that someone enjoyed my writing so much that they wanted me to write for them filled my heart with joy.

But recently it's taken a bit of a back seat. The past few months I have been busy with ending one job, starting another and fitting in a trip home inbetween. My new job (which I am loving) involves early mornings and I'm so tired when I get home that sitting down to write a post is the last thing on my mind. At my old job I had a lot of time to sit and think about blog posts, but now my mind is kept so busy at work that there's a slim chance that a blog idea would sneak through.

Living away from my biggest inspirations has also halted things. Back in the UK I was surrounded by so many wonderfully creative friends. Having like-minded people around you helps new ideas grow. I am yet to find a group of kindred spirits out here (apart from Ollie) that I can bounce ideas off and find inspiration.

I've hit a wall. I don't know what I want to talk about, and being lost for words is something I seldom suffer from. Yet, when I find something I am passionate about I struggle to put it into words. In true Meg style I pack the pressure on myself. I feel guilty that I am not writing regularly and I'm not sure why. I struggle to relax and take time for myself, yet the only ones putting pressure on is Me, Myself and I.

I constantly think about also creating videos , but the self-doubt demon likes to have it's way. I'm scared of not creating anything 'worthy' (whatever that even means). Why would/should people care? And then, if all I care about is what people think have I lost the essence of what it is to 'create'? Surely we should create for ourselves first? And, if people do relate and appreciate the contents, it's a bonus.

I jotted this all down whilst soaking wet from the shower with a hair mask on, and I'm sure it comes across as a rambling mess. But it's the only thing I can think about when it comes to my blog, and writing something messy but honest is better than nothing at all.

Ollie asked me recently if I had given up on my blog, and it hurt. I haven't given up. I'm just taking time to focus on what I really want with my writing.

For those that read my blogs - I am so appreciative that you take the time to listen to little old me. I hope that when I am back on track and ready to chat you'll still be there to read.

These next few weeks are going to be dedicated to brain-storming ideas and really honing in on what I want my blog to be. I'll be sorting out my social media to work alongside my blog, so if you do like the things I natter about keep your eye's peeled for any updates.

Again, thanks so much for sticking with my writing journey,

Till next time,

Stay Golden x